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Stress or Anxiety Dreams

Woke up after only an hour and a half or so, typical for my chronic insomnia. Worse, I had another stress dream. People don’t understand them. They can understand, a little, about my violent nightmares because I am killing someone … Continue reading

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I Know You Are Trying to Help – Part 2

Advice offered from friends can be as toxic to that relation as money between friends. ROUGH AND UNEDITED TRANSCRIPT OK, let’s call this part two of people trying to help. Maybe a side issue, because I mentioned talk therapy and … Continue reading

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I Know You Are Trying to Help – Part 1

Help offered by friends for medical problems can become as toxic to that relation money between friends. ROUGH AND UNEDITED TRANSCRIPT Testing, one, two, three, four. Testing, one, two, three, four. Good evening from Pahrump, Nevada. It is 12. I … Continue reading

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What Happened to Me: The Paranormal and PTSD



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Welcome to my Nightmare!

Just woke up. Yay! In last night’s installment, I found myself in two different locations, the Los Angeles Valley and the Sacramento, California area. SoCal wasn’t so disturbing.In that nonsense, I was in the middle of a thirty year old … Continue reading

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Intermountain and Humana Will Rejoice

As of my last nightmare, just now, I am dropping any thoughts of getting my insurance to pay for my mental health treatments. There is no time to wait. I need rest. I need peace. I can’t be frightened in … Continue reading

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No Fixes

No Fixes 3:42 AM Discouraging talk with my family practitioner yesterday. Although he wouldn’t admit it in so many words, no cure or fix exists for my chronic anxiety, nightmares, or insomnia. There never has been. All the medications and … Continue reading

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But We Shall Continue With Style

In the Eiger Sanction, Clint Eastwood’s character named Jonathan and his climbing partner are stuck on a mountain wall that has completely iced over. Andrei, a Frenchman, remarks to his fellow trapped climber, “Johnathan, you’re very good. I have really … Continue reading

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The Self-Righteous Self-Help Industry

“We are truly the sum of our own choices, nothing more.” That’s the distillation of every self-righteous self-help advocate who has never had a loved one suffer or die from mental illness. Or had a loved one killed when someone … Continue reading

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What Is The Real You?

None of us wants our personality judged when we’re drunk, high, or have lost our temper. “That’s not who I am.” Fair enough. But what if you always want a drink, a drug, or live in a violent environment? Who … Continue reading

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