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Stress or Anxiety Dreams

Woke up after only an hour and a half or so, typical for my chronic insomnia. Worse, I had another stress dream. People don’t understand them. They can understand, a little, about my violent nightmares because I am killing someone … Continue reading

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This Or An Opium Den. Maybe Both.

After three decades I am getting closer to getting the treatment I have wanted all along: ECT or electro-convulsive therapy. My psychiatrists in the past have been a conservative lot. Medicine and talk therapy were the only choices. ECT wasn’t … Continue reading

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Intermountain and Humana Will Rejoice

As of my last nightmare, just now, I am dropping any thoughts of getting my insurance to pay for my mental health treatments. There is no time to wait. I need rest. I need peace. I can’t be frightened in … Continue reading

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No Fixes

No Fixes 3:42 AM Discouraging talk with my family practitioner yesterday. Although he wouldn’t admit it in so many words, no cure or fix exists for my chronic anxiety, nightmares, or insomnia. There never has been. All the medications and … Continue reading

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Describing The Elephant: Part 4 (Conclusion)

<—— continued from here I moved back with my parents for a year. My Dad was a doctor and he put me in touch with the best psychologists and psychiatrists. None helped. They thought my experience closely resembled post-traumatic stress … Continue reading

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